Love Letters

April 2003

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I feel alone, i feel afraid, i dont know why

I feel alone. I feel afraid. I don't know why I decided to break up with you. It was all getting to be too much. I'm only 15 and you're 17. I know I'm with someone else now who I love dearly, but part of my heart is still with you. I'm confused. I'm in love with two people who both love me. I will never tell you how I feel, but I know you know. If there is a God, why is he not helping me now. The greatest thing is to love and be loved in return. So why is it SO hard......
x x x x x

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Mike-

Mike-
The first time I saw you, something about you made me feel so good inside. Days later, I had fallen in love with you, although I barely knew you then. Little by little, we got to know each other, in person and online. By that time, my feelings for you were so strong, I just had to tell you. And I know you don't feel the same way, but that can't stop my love for you. You have a way of making me feel great about myself- and that's awesome. Your warm, friendly, smile is so sweet, and so is the way you look at me when we see each other in the hall. Your personality is so amazing, it's hard not to like you. I am absolutely and completely head-over-heels in love with you. And nothing will ever change that- I promise you.

Love Always,
Katie

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I really don't know how to put it except

Dear Joseph,

I really don't know how to put it except like this...I want you to love me. I want us to kiss. To sit during the summer under the sun in your arms. I know you've said you'd love me, but I need you more. Don't leave me. Don't close the door. Well, that's what I wanted to say. I do. I do love you too.

Love,
Mandy

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Every night I lie awake thinking of you

Dear Soul mate,
Every night I lie awake thinking of you. Your identity is unknown, but your face becomes clearer each night when I dream of you. I wish you were here right now, but I know that one day we will find each other. It comforts me to know that you are out there sleeping under the same starlit sky, even if I don't know who you are. So, my love, when you are feeling lonely, remember that I am dreaming of you, and one day fate will bring us together.

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In the eyes of the be holder

In the eyes of the be holder
You're a man of nothing
Worthless, sick man you are
No one or thing waiting for you
Outside might be nice gentle
No one knows you
Inside your sole is dark screaming for help
Love burns you
No one to turn to, nothing to say
Tired
Lonely
Hopeless
Life is not how you see it
It is what you make it.

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I am

I am ugly
I am clever
I am spotty
I am greasy
I am good at netball
I love reading
I have no friends
This is who I am. I may be all this. I may have all the qualities that make boys hate me. But STILL I AM REAL.I AM HUMAN.I HAVE FEELINGS AND I AM A GIRL. I AM WORTHY of respect-oh how I passionately wish I had some. please love me
whoever you are
for I am no beauty
no sex god
but I am real
I need love like anyone else
do not discriminate me for my looks
love me like you would love a beautiful, admired, fashionable princess. How I wish

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Maybe

Maybe I have it wrong? Maybe you didnt mean anything at all about getting back together. God, I hope you did. I really do. Like, you tell me how you feel about everything and I know how depressed you are and I know I can make you feel better - you even say so.
I dunno. If Im thinking right------and I really hope I am-----then I have to wait until you're ready. I would wait. I am waiting. Id wait until Im so old I only have one year left to live if I could live that one year with you---itd be worth it. Every single second Im with you is like living on a little piece or paradise. When I talk to you 2 minutes before English, Im happy until I wake up the next morning. When I talk to you on MSN I never want to get off, and when you're not there, its sad, I know, but I get worried. Like, did you get in a fight, are you hurtmaybe and then you come online and all my worries melt away and all I can think of is you. Then his little msn convo pops up and you write hey :) and all I can think is how lucky I am to know you, and if that smile is because of me then Ive achieved the most precious goal in life. Id devote my whole life to you just to make you happy and maybe, maybe, when I see that lil' lopsided smile of his maybeitd be all okay. All this stuff thats been going on would disappear and just you and me would be together.
But then-now-I have to remember the truth. Were not together. Maybe we never will be. What Im actually doing now is playing with the letters D-A-V-E that I cut out of the Wendys menu, spreading them out in front of me and moving them around. VADE, ADEV, EVAD-none of the letters in his name make sense until the spell DAVE. And I know its stupid, but I take it as a sign that were supposed to be together. But thats me lately. My happiest moment this whole year was when you asked me out, but then you took it away. At first I was fine with it, I honestly was, but only because there was light at the end of the tunnel, the idea we might hook up when you were ready. But as that light dims, so does everything else around me. Now I dont even care about the things that used to be so important to meits all the same.
If you knew how much I care about you, what would you do? Would you come back into my life and make me the happiest person in the world? Would you get scared off? Or worst of all, would he not care? I dunno what Id do if that was the case. All I know is that I'm not happy anymore when you're not around. So I'll wait until you're ready, no matter how long that will take, because you're worth every minute of it. And when you're ready, make me the happiest person on the earth. Make me yours.

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Life (unlife)

Life is a powerful existence

It is not a place
but the emotions of living

A land of joyful breeze
Trees reach out
Filled with Peace

An existence of pleasure

A delight of an imaginative soul

Sweet wishes and dreams

A pure diamond, an orb of the
Past
Present
and Future

A world of poignant fairytales
It ends in happiness,
arousing endless joy

Blossoming Sweet Honey
beautiful summer musk

But life is not always peace

People turning against each other.
Fighting, ruining tranquility

Hatred

Foe

Guns have turned against us

The crystallizing glare
the orange-eagle eyes

Life is not for evil

It is not to be filled with
That deep, unforgivable
Pain
Higher than torment
Lower than the pureness of life

Let life be gold, like the sun
in our skin

Make a world of beauty

Life is a sensation one must encounter
but would rather not face.


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To My Cowboy

You may never know for sure how I feel, you may feel like I am like the rest of them, that I will give you worthless promises in hope of some fun while I'm young. No, I cannot promise you the same thing they did, but I can promise you this, I will never lose our love, I will never be able to look at the same sunset or the same starry night without thinking about you, you have forever changed my life and while our future is still to come, I want to live every waking moment in the presence of your smile and heart. I love you and am forever your angel.

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Joseph ((my Poohbear)),

Joseph ((my Poohbear)),
I never knew what love was until I met you. You mean the world to me and always will. You're the one I love the one I live for, the one I can't live without. Baby, I know you've heard this a million times before but I'm in love with you. And you're gonna here it a million times more! Words can't express how much I love you!

Love your baby always,
Jenna

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A whisper in the sunlight,ur name loud and clear,I will

A whisper in the sunlight, ur name loud and clear, I will love u forever, with or without fear, I call out your name and you are by my side, Baby boy I love you so, as much as the ocean tide, I will love you forever and hope the same for you, I will love u so much as the the sky is blue!

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Sweetie,

Sweetie,

Why won't you talk to me? I told you I was sorry, what more can I say. If you didn't know... your a dime-piece, something that was very special to me. How could you desert me without notice. I miss you. I try hard not to think of you, my friends say you'll come back to me... but I don't believe it's true. How could you just say "I don't care anymore" after I gave you my heart. How dare you lie on me to make me feel sad. How dare you flirt with another when you know I hurt. How dare you lie to me just to leave me. I try so hard to find things to do to get you off my mind... but nothing works. Why did you do this to me? I thought we were one. I thought you loved me and cared for me. I was wrong RIGHT? I feel like it my fault; I sit around depressed thinking it was me but baby it was you all you. How dare you hurt me like this? Never again... you're not worth my time, tears, or breath. But you can trust... you reap what you sow and baby sooner or later it will come back to you.

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I'll cross the seas a thousand times

I'll cross the seas a thousand times
to have that special love of mine
to see the sparikle in his eyes
so light they dance
so bright they shine
I'll make one hundred thousand wishes
to hear his voice and and have his kisses
I'll cross the seas a thousand times
to have that special love of mine

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Why?

Why do you treat me like this?
You know it is torture seeing you with other girls.
Why do you defy me by trying to get with my friends?
Why?
I thought you were the one.
I thought I missed you?
I was really missing something I longed for only in my heart...
Something that was never there
You made me laugh
You were my everything
The reason I woke up in the morning
The reason I went to school
The reason I looked cute everyday
Yet, you don't see me
Am I the wind... do you not see me?
I love you, what don't you understand?
Why don't you want to be with me anymore?
Please answer me... I love you

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You Don't Need

You don't need fancy jewelry,
To make me fall for you,
You don't need a lot of makeup,
To cause me to pursue.
You don't need clothes from Gucci,
To make me like you more.
You do not need to put on airs,
To make my passions soar.
All you need is honesty,
And a smiling face,
Sincerity and loyalty,
And a gentle warm embrace.

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Mi Amor

Mi Amor,
Today is your golden birthday. This day is not only special for you, it is special for me too because you are part of me. You have a special place in my heart and you will always have that special place. No one else in this world can take that place you have. You mean so much to me I can't explain it. My love for you is so deep and forever. There is no limit to the love and warm feelings that I have for you. I am in love with you and I will always love you forever. No one can change the way I feel about you. No one, not even you or I can change that. You give me the strength to carry on. Our bond is strong. I don't think that anything can break this bond because we won't let this happen. You brought out a part of me that I thought never existed. Everyday I thank God for bringing us together. You are the one for me and you will always be.
Tu Amor...

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Letter to Mark

Mark,
I know to you, I am only a friend, a special friend, but I can't hold this in anymore. I know you said you're not interested in anybody and that you dont know when you will be but I can't keep hiding my feelings from you.
I can't help seeing you right in front of me, looking at you with that determination in your eyes. But not being able to reach out and hug you and tell you that nothing matters more to me than you makes me cry and hurt so much inside.
I feel like I have known you forever. I feel like we were meant to be now and forever. I came to realize that there isnt a thing I wouldnt do for you. You mean the world to me and I wish you could just give me a chance. I know it's a lot to ask but I just wanna be with you. I wanna show you how great our times together would be and how wonderful it will feel knowing that whenever we are scared or having hard times we can cry together, hold each other, and realize we can face anything as long as we are together.
You would never believe the effect you have had on my life, the smiles you have brought upon my face and how much you have touched my heart. I am willing to give you my heart because I cant think of anybody else who would treat it better.
So I ask you, please, I just need one chance. That's all I want, that's all that matters to me. But if you dont, I understand. I just can't wait to hear you say it, here you say that we could give it a try so please...please.

G2G! Love You 2 Death!
Forever,
***Carmen***

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Love You

Love you like never before.
I hope you adore that I am writing this to you boy,
In our relationship do not treat me like a toy.
I might not be nice you, thats true.
Its not just me who is depending on you.
I love you honey a lot. I will really miss you if I die.
Love you babe. Cause you are my boyfriend.

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Everyday

Everyday I see you; my eyes follow your every move. I go crazy waiting for you to say something to me, but when you do, my heart misses a beat and I melt in my shoes. I feel my cheeks turn red and I feel as if I can only look at you and I cant touch you. You seem so distant to me at times. Whats wrong? All I want is one kiss from you and I will fade away or is this figment of my imagination??

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Never Comes a Day

There would never come a day,
You will never hear me say.
That I want...or need to be without you.
When I look into your eyes, then I realize,
All I need is you in my life, all I need is you.
I have never felt this way about anyone, never so close to the edge.
All I need is you and my world would come together.
I love you, I need u, I want you.

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Goodbye

Dear Ian,
I just want you to know that I will miss every single thing about you and your personality.
You are the air that I breathe.
The sun that shines down on me every day.
You are the clouds in my sky.
The tears that I cry.
The heart that breaks for you. All the things I do, I do it for you. Why oh why I never got to say good-bye!
Your one and only,
Sarah

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I Wish You Could Hear This

Dear Tom,
You're one in a million, youre so romantic, and that makes you one in a billion.
I wish you could hear this as I love you so much, please be mine forever and ever.
I do not mean to intrude or offend, but all I can say is please go back out with me once again! We can go to all our old spots, visit the tree where you carved our names in a big heart, Please go back out with me, you know who I am. I'm sorry if it seems like I've sunk very low in fact my name is....... oops, gotta go!

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Who I Fancy

When my friends say to me "who do you fancy?" I whisper your name. I dont want to whisper I want to shout your name, I dont care if they tease me I dont care if you stare at me in disgust, but if you say you dont love me itll be like my heart would of ripped in two. Its not fair, all the girls in the class like you, but they just want a boyfriend. Me? I just simply love you. Forget me, Im worthless I dont stand a chance against all those pretty girls, Im not ugly, Im not pretty but my heart is like gold now that I met you, every time you laugh at my jokes I smile, I wanna laugh too, but I cant...Im too shy...I cant go on, I have to let you know how I feel, its like Im trapped in a cage, now you let me free... Im in love with you, but its not a bad thing, Im happy happy happy that youre in my class

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Whenever I See You

Whenever I see your face my heart lights up with joy. Spenser my love I miss you so much, I think of you all the time. I am writing this on the Internet because I am afraid to tell you. I hope you feel the same about me. Spenser my love, I have no other way to express my thoughts. I hope we are in love for the rest of eternity and for all the rest of you Smartgirls your chance to have yo' man isn't over yet. love:anonymous

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Contents:

  1. Mike-
  2. In the eyes of the be holder
  3. Life (unlife)
  4. To My Cowboy
  5. Joseph ((my Poohbear)),
  6. A whisper in the sunlight,ur name loud and clear,I will
  7. Sweetie,
  8. I'll cross the seas a thousand times
  9. Why?
  10. You Don't Need
  11. Love You
  12. Everyday
  13. Never Comes a Day
  14. Goodbye
  15. I Wish You Could Hear This
  16. I feel alone, i feel afraid, i dont know why
  17. I really don't know how to put it except
  18. Every night I lie awake thinking of you
  19. I am
  20. Maybe
  21. Mi Amor
  22. Letter to Mark
  23. Who I Fancy
  24. Whenever I See You